Monday, February 14, 2011

"Enough Already"

This picture doesn't represent anything for me or this post...I just thought is was beautiful, it has a feeling of calmness about it that made me feel just a little bit better...

Yesterday was a very challenging day for me..
Working on some pretty tough projects from my
 "Soul Restoration Class"...
Dealing with the flu...and
saying good-bye to my husband once again...
If I haven't talked about this before, he lives and works all week in another every Friday night he flies home and every Sunday night we are back to the airport and saying good-bye again..its been 3 years of doing this and it never gets easier..
I am alone in my house now, my daughter married and although they live close, we don't actually see each other as often as I would wish..of course with jobs and household obligations, time is at a premium..
My son is living in another city, which sometimes can be very sad for me, but of course he is having a wonderful time and enjoying the big city, and I love that...but I still miss him very much..
So that leaves me and my dog Maddie..I don't know what I would do without her..
Anyway, back to saying good-bye..I usually cry all the way home from the airport, I try not to, but its hard to watch him walk away knowing that he doesn't want to leave either.
We are working hard to get him back home, but I know that God's plans for us are in motion and I need to be patient and have faith.
Its just so very hard to be apart from each other.  We will be married 35 years in May and have been together since we were 16...
Life has just been so hard the last 3 years, for many different reasons, and I just pray everyday for it to be less hard, a little less challenging...I'm tired and so is he...
There have been so many lessons learned and for that I am endlessly much growth for us as individuals and as a couple, again I am grateful, thankful....
I have been living all these years in survival mode, not ever realizing that is what is called strength, for me it just was..
It is said that struggles build character, show you what you are made of, make you appreciate the good times..
I don't disagree...but I must admit, sometimes I think 
"enough already"...

Blessings to all,

1 comment:

  1. I do feel for you Val. I went through 2 1/2 years of my husband being in Mass. He came home once per month. I was so lonely, even though I had three children home to take care of. Then he got laid off and was home 24/7 for 8 months. What a drastic change. Finally got a job out of town and we did the same thing you and Eric have been doing. That was for about 1 1/2 years, until he found a job right in our town. Hope you have some normalcy soon. Love, Linda