When I finally sat down at my desk this morning I opened up my e-mail and my "Brave Girls Daily Truth" and Melody Ross had written a blog entitled "You do not have to Prove Anything"..
It hit hard in my heart...I wish that was true, for me at least. I feel as if I have been trying to prove myself worthy of love, worthy of consideration, worthy of thoughtfulness, worthy of kindness, for so long.
Its hard to try to please everyone.
To live up to others expectations..
To not ask for anything..
To do things just right, to tip toe, to mold for different peoples expectations so that you will stay in their good graces...so that you will be loved, accepted just as you are..no matter how hard or inconvenient it might be to others..
To feel others dislike floating in the air and you don't know what you did..
To fight the demons of self doubt is exhausting..
To be alone, even when others are around is sadness...
But I will keep fighting those demons...I always have...
Sometimes I am tired...
A poem by the incredible Melody Ross..